I am destroying the life I spent years building for myself. And in its place, I am consciously creating the life I never even dared to dream. I left my partner of 17 years. I said goodbye to the hopes and dreams of my past self.
I sat in the fire of my pain until I was nothing but ashes. The fire razed old belief systems and structures that no longer aligned with my values. And from the ashes, I was born anew.
No longer willing to repeat the same mistakes. No longer able to suffocate my wildest desires. Not for anything or anyone.
I spent my entire life turning myself inside out, trying so hard to be the good, perfect person I was taught to be, terrified of taking risks or making mistakes. Tirelessly squeezing myself to fit into the tiniest of cages I created and heavily guarded.
But that person is no longer who I am. That person died and was reborn. I thank her for getting me to where I am now. I honor the lessons and cycles that made it possible for me to rise as the bad-ass warrior that I am. And this warrior is done hiding.
I am unleashing myself onto the world. I will do so until I am completely and unapologetically my most authentic self. Until I can openly express ALL OF ME.
I am in a space brimming with infinite possibilities, and I want to experience it all. I want to drink in every last drop of pleasure. I want to live as I have never lived before, in total abandon and with absolute freedom.
This is the life I dare to claim for myself. The life of my dreams…one in which I live wholly unleashed. This is going to be the wildest, most delicious next chapter of my life, and I can’t fucking wait to see how it all unfolds.